Lately I haven’t been feeling like myself at all.
If anything there’s like this second mind reeling inside of my head. A mind that I don’t want , I don’t like , it scares me.
I hadn’t really realized the thoughts of suicide are back nor did I realize just how serious it is.
I could go to bed at 3 and be awake for another 2 hours just thinking of ways to kill myself. How sad everyone would be if I was gone and just how bad off I was because they were to caught up in themselves.
Even though they aren’t caught up in themselves a part of me is just feeling left behind in every aspect.
Like they’re off in their shiny world while i’m stuck in my bleak little world , thats my own fault though really.
